{the worst is over now, and we can breathe again}

Immediately following one of the toughest weeks I'd had in quite some time, I finally had one of the easiest. I'm not sure what happened that made this past week different, but it felt peaceful. I'm finally figuring out how to manage the difficult times and soak in the good times. It definitely helps to have closure on some things. Selling the house was a big step, and not seeing my ex every day has helped to ease a lot of pain. I also saw someone I hadn't seen in months. Instead of feeling anger, pain, longing for how things used to be, or regret, I felt something amazing. I felt nothing.

I still have difficult moments, but it's all a part of the process. It started with difficult months, which turned to difficult weeks, which became difficult days. Moments are much easier to manage. Oftentimes a song will remind me of something, which will cause me to be sad. I've gotten better about deciphering my moods, and figuring out if I can listen to the song and be grateful for the memory, or if I need to change it to a different song so as not to dwell on the past. I'm starting to truly be thankful for the wonderful people I have in my life.

These past few months have flown by, with no signs of slowing down. I've been working to get my apartment put together, have been getting back into photography on my own, and have been crazy busy at work. I started working out again, and have already managed to lose a few pounds. I'm getting back on track in every aspect of my life. I really appreciate all the support I've received, both from close friends and relatives, to co-workers and random acquaintances. I'm rediscovering a couple friendships as well; people who are in similar situations as me, getting out of long-term relationships. It's nice to lean on each other, to not feel so alone. I have a feeling it's going to be a fun summer! :)

I've been loving this song lately... here are a few lyrics:

The End Where I Begin by The Script

"...It's the end where I begin

Now I'm alive
and my ghosts are gone
I've shed all the pain
I've been holding on
The cure for a heart
Is to move along, is to move along
So move along... 
What don't kill a heart
Only makes it strong

Sometimes tears say all there is to say
Sometime your first scars dont ever fade, away

... Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes
Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away"